Samuel – The Aliens Have Told Him What To Do – 2004 THIS WILL BE POLISHED UP LATER
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This is it! All this time I’ve been waiting and finally it’s here IT’S HERE and I know it’s real – but I always knew it was real, of course I knew it was real it’s just that nobody else knew and nobody ever believed it if I said anything – they thought I was just making things up or that maybe I’m insane. I thought maybe they were right, that could be a possibility. But I didn’t think that, not really, it’s been going on too long – since I was a kid, I’d see them sometimes and they would talk to me but I don’t know how they did it. They talked to Joel too when he was very very small but they kept talking to me, they still talk to me. I don’t remember them speaking words it was all inside my head which made it even more confusing. MORE DESCRIP OF “ALIENS”? SMALL LIKE GREYS? TALLER?
They told me to build the Time Machine COOL! and even I knew that was nuts, time machines don’t exist they aren’t going to work. I guess they don’t, although something happened with Albert ADD: SO (ETC) at least he thinks it did. He thinks it worked.
I did what they told me because they said I would need it one day. Like now, I guess, ha! but as it turns out I don’t because Grandma caught on and has another way. That’s nearly as weird as the Time Machine working would be, i didn’t expect that, not for her to figure it out and have a plan for me. I’m glad she did but I’m also scared but it’s not as scary as staying would be.
I need to slow down I can barely read this
but I have to write it now so I won’t ever forget
and I have to hurry because tomorrow is the day
Grandpa was wrong NEW SENTENCE he was wrong about me and he was wrong about our mom. I knew that, I knew what he wanted was wrong, how could it not be? I didn’t know how wrong though till Albert told us what he saw happen to mom CAPITAL M at the church. I didn’t know till then that it would be me next
It all made sense then, I knew what they were telling me that I have to get out and I have important work to do – work that won’t get me killed. Poor mom. She thought she was doing important work I know that now
She wasn’t. She was a sacrifice.
Tonight I found out so many things! That what Grandpa wants from me is all fucked up – that i can actually do it, handle the snakes but it’s not what I’m meant to do and it wasn’t what mom CAPITAL M was meant to do either, it’s all kinds of fucked and wrong
that grandma knows and will help me
that they are still looking out for me and now even Quentin has proof. He never understood it, probably still doesn’t but he’s always been right there with me. I’ll miss him, I’m miss them all but it won’t be forever. Grandpa will realize he was wrong and I’ll be back before long.
I can’t describe what happened tonight, what we saw – I’ll do it later, when I have time to think about it – now it’s time to get a little sleep, I feel like there are bees in my head but i have to be ready tomorrow. Can’t do anything else tonight, don’t want to wake up eddy. I won’t be taking much, can throw it all in my bag in the morning
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I’m on the bus can’t believe this is actually happening this is crazy
Eddy was awake when I got up, he was staring at me like he knew something was going on but maybe it was because of the snake church – he didn’t go, was working REASON WHY EDDY WASN’T THERE — WAS THIS STATED BEFORE?, felt like he should have been there, the twins would have told him what happened
He asked if I was ok as soon as I opened my eyes, I said of course I am, when am I not ok? Do you want to talk about it he asked and I said later – no time, he had to get to the diner for his early shift, I said.
We’ll talk when I get home he said. We will, I said. I threw my pillow at him, said go on! I need more sleep!
I didn’t sleep – as soon as he left I was up cramming stuff into my knapsack. A few clothes, books, toothbrush, everything I could think of fast. I wanted to look in on the twins and Jessie but they can’t know what’s going on and i was afraid I’d give it away. They were still asleep anyway, it was very early, barely starting to get light.
Grandma was at the foot of the stairs. TIME MACHINE WAS A RED HERRING. IT WAS GRANDMA WHO WAS HIS SALVATION ALL ALONG — GRANDMA KNOWS ABOUT ALIENS? DOES SHE BELIEVE IN HIS TIME MACHINE EVEN? MORE CONNECTIONS BETWEEN GRANDMA AND TIME MACHINE? ALIENS AND TIME MACHINE?
Shhhhh, she said, pulled me into the sewing room
He’s down at the barn she said, we need to hurry
She handed me the money and the name and phone number and directions
You’ll have to walk to the bus station she said, he’ll hear the car. He won’t realize you’ve gone till it’s too late to stop you
He’ll be mad at you COMMA I said. I was having doubts. It was too much.
He won’t know, she said. He’ll think you just went on your own. And he won’t know where.
Grandma’s eyes were red. Mine stung too.
Hurry on now, she said, giving me a little push. You don’t want to miss the bus. She hugged me quick, then i was out the door and gone, nearly running through the pasture till i was far enough from the barn that he wouldn’t see me if he came out
The bus pulled up right after i got my ticket, nobody else waiting, nobody got off. Old Mrs Wilson sold me the ticket, I said i was going to see my friend in Charlotte for a few days and she just nodded and said have a good time dear
And now it’s really happening, the bus is flying along down the interstate and it’s the beginning!